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i have been getting hundreds of messages & emails from y’all about your mental health & how my music has positively affected your lives. there is no amount of money or things that i would trade for hearing how the words i write can impact people in a positive way. this is why i create songs. not to give you a passive tune for background noise or to play in a club. i want each word i write to have a meaning and affect on people’s lives, even if that means upsetting & or making a few feel uneasy. next month i’m putting out the gloomy tapes: volume 1. 5 songs that will be our intro to the world. i love you so much. riz 🌧🌧🌧
PLEASE READ: i’m putting out a very controversial, but much needed song june 8th. it pushes the boundaries. it will cause discomfort & uneasiness to those who hear it but it needs to be heard, especially in america /// i realized that my purpose isn’t to be the soft pop artist the music industry feels safe to co-sign. i am not that. i’m not perfect, i’m not smooth & neither should my music 🌧🌧🌧 if u WANNA HEAR IT EARLY IM GONNA SEND IT TO WHOEVER LEAVES THE MOST COMMENTS ON THIS PIC 🌧🌧🌧
i want every post to be a piece of my story. this is taken from a song i wrote about growing up... 🌧 it’s ok to be sad it’s ok if u cry say u wanna be dead but i still want u alive it’s ok if u can’t ill be here when it’s tough it’s ok to be sad but it isn’t ok to give up i remember sitting in my basement listening to gun shots not literal gun shots the ones where love stops and two people try to kill each other over some loud as f**k tough talk parents at war i don’t think it’s fair to be torn i don’t know which parent to join cus either way i’m there in the storm and i hate rainy days so im never getting married i swore it just get a divorce i went to school shaking. eyes filled up w tears that i cried i put on my face and smiled. i don’t want people to find out had no one to say it’s fine. no one who knew what i went through i wanted to give up and die but i found the light when i met u love, riz 🌧
the response to my post has been incredible. it means everything to me to have so many beautiful people that have my back. i received over 1000 messages/emails from people across america & the world letting me know how i’ve impacted them, positively & negatively. it really solidified my decision to start fresh & put 100% into doing what i do best, writing songs to help others. our voices will be heard by millions soon. your friend for life, riz 🌧
PLEASE READ: like billions of people in this world, my whole life has been a battle. a battle w my parents, friends & ex-friends, my body image, my mental illnesses; anxiety & depression. i’ve battled with right & wrong countless times, and unfortunately the wrong choices have taken over many times in the last few years. in high school i didn’t drink or smoke or get invited parties. my mom battled with alcoholism & i swore to never take a sip of alcohol. i sat at home and wrote songs instead. i wanted to make music to help myself & escape from my reality but it turned into an escape for hundreds of thousands of others that look up to me to be their voice.. at the time no one supported me. no one gave a fuck what this white boy “rapper” from a town of 5000 ppl was saying or doing. i felt alone. i didn’t get the girls, i wasn’t in the cool group. when i finally started succeeding & growing a fan base, i took advantage of it, almost as if to say “fuck everyone who didn’t wanna be my friend or support me back then” & acted reckless & spiteful. from constantly trying to hookup with girls & a fixation of being a “rockstar” to being unkind to fans that looked up to me. i have been battling myself ever since. seeing long time supporters stop caring because of my poor decisions has taken a toll on me & i wanted to apologize for the fucked up shit i’ve done. i’ve hurt way too many people to count, & even worse let down the people who loved me. i deleted everything from social media to give myself closure on the past i want & need to leave behind, and to hopefully start over with my growing fan base i call the gloomy cult. in the next year i am releasing 3 EPs called The Gloomy Tapes which will cover my life from the last 3 years, in which i’ve seen success, failure, regret & repentance. i am still in a constant battle to be a better person & i’ll hopefully continue to win more of these battles as i grow up & grow as an artist/person. i let the pressure get to me & nearly ruined everything i’ve dreamed of since i was 10. i hope i can gain back your trust & give it all back to u through my music. thank you for loving me & my crazy mind. your friend for life, riz🌧
where are u from? leave a comment 🌧 (this isn’t for planning a tour or anything 😜😘)
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